Pre-CNY blues

Dear all,

Hows things going for you guys? Hope all's good. Mine is just well, long days, short night..Still jobless and enjoying life with the bank account going red alert..OTL

Anyway, CNY is coming soon like less than 4 days?Usually this is the time of year which I am sorta looking forward to ( Angpau, Goodies etc) but apparently, the situation will be the opposite this year.

Why you ask? Well, for one, I am expecting there will be loads of questions being asked by family and relatives , " Have you gotten a job yet"? "What are your plans now that you have finally graduated after what seems to be forever ( trust me, for some, a 4 years degree feels like 10years..and every year without fail, people will be asking me the same questions as if they are doing some sort of countdowns: "How many years to go?" or "Have you graduated yet?")..not to mention that most cousins around my age have already started working..

As such, I am pretty erm..nervous?anxious?freaking out? for what is to be expected this upcoming CNY..God or whoever up above, make me invisible..

Anyway, I hope that job opportunity would appear after CNY..because I need to resuscitate my dying bank account..so that I can continue buying/funding my hobbies and life.

Shall end this post with this song:  A-Team by Ed Sheeran



Cheers,

Chris C

Acceptance

Dear All,

I feel dejected..not by anyone but myself..
Haven't been keeping a strict regime on my diet intake and workouts..
As a result, I can already see myself gaining more weight each day and the new breakouts on my face doesn't help much either..
You guys may think that : " Gosh..this guy is so shallow and narcissistic" but well,I couldn't help it..
Just for once,I would like to look good and feel good about myself..Having a pretty low self esteem of myself makes things worse..*sigh*

Another issue which I had in mind is regarding the old man..Why can't he just disappear from my life..such a bothersome creature..yes, I am very thankful for him for bringing me up but I don't see a big deal on it..after all, if he can bring me to this world,this is his responsibility..In my eyes however, he is a failure, I mean a total failure..Curse me all you want, label me as an ingrate and an unfilial son but I don't exactly give a damn anymore..and to my dear uncles, I am sorry that he has been such a trouble to all of you..and I am sorry that I couldn't repay the favour..

I don't know what to do now..seriously I am feeling so lost..all I want is to live my life the way I want to without depending too much on anybody..just me, myself and I..

:(,Chris C

Merry Christmas

Dear All,

It has ended!!! Yes, my posting at Kuantan has come to an end yesterday and now I am back at PJ again. :) By the way, it is Christmas today~ Jingle Jingle ~

So,what are your plans today? Either way, do have a wonderful time ahead. :) I do miss home..plan to go home on the 28th if things goes well..

Hmm...nothing much to write at the moment..till then, take care and have a nice Christmas!

SEASON'S GREETINGS FROM SILENT SOUL..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Yours Truly,
Chris C

Dysfunctional..

Dear All,

So many things happened these few days..I doubt if I can still keep a sane mind or totally lost it sooner or later.

Today was the first day of my final examination for this semester. I wouldn't dare to say that I did well but I think I did whatever I am supposed to do and the rest is up to fate to decide.

Somehow I am still feeling terribly grateful and relieved when the question I am being tested on is related to McKenzie technique rather than the Massage or Peripheral Joint Mobilisation component. Thank You God for your blessings.

Two more days to go with tomorrow being Therapeutic Exercise Strand and Electro Modalities on the day after tomorrow. Hoping to get something which is in my capability.. *prays hard*

Last week, had an argument with my dad. Well, I have never seemed to get along with him anyway. Sometimes what he says does make sense but then I just hate it when he is being long winded and naggy. Moreover, sometimes he just irritates me because as much as his presence in my life is important, I do find it uncomfortable at the same time too.

Then just a day after we argued, I received news from my uncle that he was admitted to the hospital due to a fall..I do suspect that it might be due to him drinking too much prior to the fall since he was talking gibberish the other day when we were arguing through the phone.

I am not sure of his condition but at the moment,he is conscious but sustained injuries at his spine ( not sure which level though..but uncle did mention something about at the cervical neck region)..So currently he is paralysed from the lower extremities in which I am not very sure as well since I have yet to go visit him due to business in exam preparation etc. Anyway, I do hope he is okay and maybe visit him after my last examination. ( Deep inside me, I don't feel like seeing him at all because I don't want another argument to arise but still..sigh..)

As much as I have gotten used to this dysfunction family situation ( mummy one side and daddy another side and being pushed here and there ), sometimes I just get so emotional and abnormal.
After a long time since I last cried, I finally had a quick one yesterday night.Feeling lost and lonely and no one to share this with.

Anyway,for now as Willie told me, it is better to put aside family matters for now and concentrate on my exams instead..At least that is the best solution at the moment.

Well, time to get cracking and going..TE and Electro, I am gonna do my best to get through both of you.

Till then, take care and cheers.

Yours Truly,

Chris C

Rantings of a Homesick Crybaby

Dear All,

Hope that you're doing well over there..
Looks like it is raining over here again..Owh well,it is the rainy season all over again..

Anyway,I have just reached PJ yesterday..Somehow still feeling slightly homesick..Almost burst into tears yesterday when I saw a little girl bidding farewell to her big sister on the bus..This kind of scene never fail to wrench and touch my heart.. :x ( I know I'm a crybaby~)

Woke up this morning with a sore Trapz muscles though...all the room and toilet cleaning ( One month worth of dust and dirt) and luggage hauling ( from Bukit Jalil to PJ ).. I am not surprised..>< .. ouchie~

The next trip home would be on Christmas itself..Sob..Still a long way to go..

Oritey, I shall end my entry with a particular song from the animated movie " Bolt "...LOL.. Yeah, I watched it with my sis at home and we both loved it~

BARKING AT THE MOON By JENNY LEWIS ( From BOLT OST)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kxCxhkkhIs

( Can't seemed to find any videos that is embedded enabled so I guess you guys have to click on the link above instead to listen to this song..sorry for the inconvenience :x)

LYRICS :

I have got so much to give, I swear I do.
I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new.
Yes I've lived a good one.
I have tried to be true.
There are some things I never realized, till I met you.
How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I'm barking at the moon.

[chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

Well I was in trouble, bad.
I was so confused.
I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue.
I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true.
My experience was so mysterious, till I met you.
Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon.

[Chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you...

[end]


Till then,hope you guys enjoy the song and have a nice day ahead :)

Yours Truly,

Chris C

Homesick

Dear All,

It is already middle of July already..and next month I would be going for my 3rd Clinical Posting at Malacca General Hospital from 9th August onwards till 3rd September 2010..

It's been a long time since I went home..If I am not mistaken,the last time I went home was during Chinese New Year..almost 5 months ago!! Gasp! I am missing mum and sis..and the goodness of home already..

Somehow,each time when I planned to go home,something would have pop out and disrupt my plans..For example, I am supposed to have a 2 weeks break after my first semester exam but it got cancelled abruptly without any valid reason..sigh..then it is straight to sem 2..Can you imagine how stressful was it?? :(

Anyway,I found this song by Angela Aki titled "HOME" .. Just the right song to express my feeling at the moment...


HOME by Angela Aki




Lyrics ( courtesy of www.corichan.com ):

sensai na ito de soboku na machi ni shibaritsukerareteta koro
miageru tabi ni sora wa utsushita, haruka ni tooi sekai wo
chiisana basho wo ato ni shite kara dore kurai mou tatsu no darou
Home is calling

I was tied to this simple town with a fine thread
and whenever I looked up, the sky reflected a distant world far away
After I leave this small place behind, I wonder how much time will pass till
Home is calling

furusato kokoro no naka de ima demo yasashiku hibiiteru
samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa anata wo yonde iru

Even now, my home is echoing gently in my heart
On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness, I'm calling you

tokai no sora ni yume wo takushite kokoro wo gisei ni shiteru
yashin to ai no chouwa ga torezu daremo ga samayotte iru
kazaranakatta seijitsu na hibi kono goro nazeka koishiku omou
Home is calling

I entrust my dreams to the city sky, sacrificing my soul
Ambition & love don't mix; everyone is wandering about
They were honest, ungarnished days & for some reason, I recently think of them fondly
Home is calling

furusato taezu ni ai shite kureta sonna hito no kao wo
mou ichido mite mitai, kyoushuu ni karare anata wo yonde iru

I want to once again see the faces
of the people in my hometown who constantly gave me love
Homesick, I'm calling out to you

kako to ima no aida no tobari wo sotto hiraite miru to
sora no wareme kara koboreru hikari ga meguru jidai wo sashite ita
Home is calling

When I open the curtain between the past & the present,
The light spilling from the break in the sky, shines on the revolving times
Home is calling

furusato kokoro no naka de ima demo yasashiku hibiku yo
todomaru koto wo shiranai kibou ni mi wo makasete itemo
samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa anata wo yonde iru
Home is always calling out my name

Even now, my home is echoing gently in my heart
Even if I trust myself to the hope with no limits
On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness, I'm calling you
Home is always calling out my name

samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa
anata wo yonde iru
furusato wo yonde iru

On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness
I'm calling you
I'm calling home

Yours Truly,

Chris C. the Homesick Silent Soul

CNY at Hometown 2

Dear all,

Sorry for my absence..It has been a really busy week and as a result,I didn't have much time to update my blog.

Anyway,back to today's entry..As promised,I will share with all of you about my Chinese New Year celebration at my hometown no.2,a small town called Layang-Layang which is situated south of the Kluang district,Johore.

As usual like any other year, my aunt from Klang will drop by Malacca to pick me up from my uncle's place and then I will be travelling down to Johore along with her family..

In the past, when my 3 cousins and I were still young,the backseat of the car seemed to be very spacious or at least comfortable.Now that we have all grown up,things are a little cramped up. By the time we reached our destination,I can feel that my butt has already "shape-shifting"..LOL

To cut short all the details, these are summary of activities which I have done during my 3 days stay there:

- Red Packet Collecting
- Gossips Listening Sessions (Conducted by the womenfolks..the homme species just listens in amusement)
- Eat..eat...eat...drink..drink..(digest)..continues to eat and drink while the weighing scale keeps on increasing...(= =)
- Kuo Ming Lantern releasing ( Its illegal but well...Hee..since when we start
abiding by rules during festive season)
- Grudgingly but without choice..studying for my musculoskeletal paper resit

Yeah..thats about it..so pretty boring right? That's all I can say about my CNY celebration this year..nothing fantastic or out of the world..

I will end this entry with some photos..haha..I know I'm not a good photographer,neither do I have those high tech gadget [ Still depending on my faithful k750i built in 2mp camera :/ ]

Till then,cheers and have a good one..:)

Blek...I hate this year's CNY

Behold...freeze!! You guys are under arrest!! These are the culprits (besides yours truly) that cause the unwanted extra weight..><..I swear..I'm innocent..they are the one who seduced me..I am unaware of my actions!!

My glass of home-made red wine..yum yum..I'm not an alcoholic!!

Family members loitering gathering outside at the lawn of grandparent's house

Me sipping on my glass of wine..Don't worry..I am of legal age..hee~

Yours truly,

Chris C a.k.a the Innocent Wine Loving Accuser

Yakult Chew ??

Dear all,

After a moment of being absent, I decided that I need to get back on track..This year's CNY have been a really quiet one..unlike those of the previous years..Kinda sad huh?

Nevertheless, I still did managed to catch up with a few of my cousins @ Malacca..and boy,the outing with them was real fun albeit a short one though due to time constraint..

From back: Me, Fiona and Amy

From back (Clockwise): Me, Amy and errr...Fiona's hand XD

Just let me briefly list out what and where did we went to :

Morning :
- Amy came to pick Fiona and me from Fiona's place..
- Cheng Hoon Teng temple for prayer..( Suddenly feeling religious!)
- Went for pineapple tart hunting..

Afternoon :
- Went to the newly opened Aeon Jusco to escape the scorching murderous heat out there.. >< ... - Had lunch at Sushi King..

- Continue to explore the shopping complex..many stores ain't open either due to CNY or under renovation.

Late Afternoon :
-Went to visit my aunt and uncle (Amy's parents) at their work place because I have to leave for Johore the next day...
-Back to Fiona's place..took a shower and nap till dinner time ..><

Some scallop fiesta

Our "mini" Yee Sang

Loh ah~ Huat ah~ Ong ah~

And while we were at Sushi King..we sort of took some candid pics..for example :

Got pinched? (T.T)

Got " Head-Snatched" ?

Got "Chopsticked" ?

Got "Smacked" ??

Got "Chopsticked" once again...

And we were discussing something about a famous singer named "Yoga Lin"..seriously I have never heard of such person before.. Perhaps because I don't really follow those Asian Entertainment News..and I somehow find that name silly that I randomly proclaim that I shall be known as "Yakult Chew" !! *LMAO*

" Yakult " Chew and his Yakult?

Gosh...tastes soooooo....heavenly...Yakult..Good for constipation...
( sounds like some sort of inofficial Yakult promoting )

Conclusion? Hmmph...(with the proud and arrogant look)....
Just call me YAKULT CHEW !!!

After lunch,it's time for more candid shots..hee... :P

Slurppp~ I don't taste anything..only colourings...XD

Chotto Matte Kudasai~~~ Matte nehhh~~ Don't leave me..sob sob..

This is how you "catch" a girl..hee...now sweetie..you're mine..nyahahha~~

Psst..psst..Don't tell Samantha k?? *gossip gossip*

Ooops...emm emm....*speechless*..hehe

Cake anyone??

And not to be forgotten that Valentine's day falls on the same day as CNY this year~~

In my heart..there's only place for my sushis and bentos...hehe

Well...that is all for now I guess..will update you guys soon on CNY @ hometown no.2..(be patient yeah...Yakult is still trying to invoke his blogger sense)...><

Till then , take care and have a great day ahead..cheers :)


Yours Truly,

Chris a.k.a Yakult Chew the dramatic tragic sushi lover