Rantings of a Homesick Crybaby

Dear All,

Hope that you're doing well over there..
Looks like it is raining over here again..Owh well,it is the rainy season all over again..

Anyway,I have just reached PJ yesterday..Somehow still feeling slightly homesick..Almost burst into tears yesterday when I saw a little girl bidding farewell to her big sister on the bus..This kind of scene never fail to wrench and touch my heart.. :x ( I know I'm a crybaby~)

Woke up this morning with a sore Trapz muscles though...all the room and toilet cleaning ( One month worth of dust and dirt) and luggage hauling ( from Bukit Jalil to PJ ).. I am not surprised..>< .. ouchie~

The next trip home would be on Christmas itself..Sob..Still a long way to go..

Oritey, I shall end my entry with a particular song from the animated movie " Bolt "...LOL.. Yeah, I watched it with my sis at home and we both loved it~

BARKING AT THE MOON By JENNY LEWIS ( From BOLT OST)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kxCxhkkhIs

( Can't seemed to find any videos that is embedded enabled so I guess you guys have to click on the link above instead to listen to this song..sorry for the inconvenience :x)

LYRICS :

I have got so much to give, I swear I do.
I may not have nine lives, this one feels brand new.
Yes I've lived a good one.
I have tried to be true.
There are some things I never realized, till I met you.
How the wind feels on my cheeks, when I'm barking at the moon.

[chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

Well I was in trouble, bad.
I was so confused.
I may not see in color babe, but I sure can feel blue.
I have been a lot of things, they may not all be true.
My experience was so mysterious, till I met you.
Now the sun may rise in the east, but I'm barking at the moon.

[Chorus]
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.
Woo Woo! Here I come.
Woo Woo! Back to you.
There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you.

There is no home like the one you've got, cuz that home belongs to you...

[end]


Till then,hope you guys enjoy the song and have a nice day ahead :)

Yours Truly,

Chris C

From Me to Myself Pt.3

Dear Me,

Everything will be okay...Even though you are all alone now but remember that you are never truly alone because you still have yourself to love and care about..

This is a song for you and I hope that it will bring up a little joy inside you..:)

KODOKU NO KAKERA ( Fragments of Loneliness ) by ANGELA AKI




LYRICS:

Kanji Lyrics :

Tokei no hari ga niji wo sashite
Konya mo nemurenu yoru ga kita
Koi no hitotsu ushinattemo
Douyou suru koto wa nakatta
Ima made nara tameiki wo tsuite
Kako ni fukitobashite ita

Ai shikata ga wakaranai dake ja naku
Hito wo shinjiru koto ga dekinai mama
Tada jikan dake ga sugite yuku
Watashi wo okizari ni shite

Kanashimi ga atte hitori ni natte
Kodoku no kakera wo mune ni daite
Anata ni deatte hajimete kizuita
Shiawase ga aru koto wo

Ame ni nurete tatta ichido
Futari ga musubareta ano yoru
Kakaeta itami mo subete wasurete
Shoujiki ni naretan da

Tsugunau koto wa imasara dekinai kedo
Akirameru ni wa mada hayai ki ga suru
Dekaketa kotoba wo nomikonde wa
Mata anata ni se wo muketa

Yasashisa ga atte nukumori ga atte
Kodoku wa sukoshi zutsu tokete yuku no
Uragiri ga atte sore demo shinjitai
Shiawase ga aru koto wo

Tsuyogarazu anata ni tsutaeru kara
Kondo wa kaeranaide

Kanashimi ga atte hitori ni natte
Kodoku no kakera wo mune ni daite
Namida wo nagashite jibun wo yurushite
Kodoku no kakera wo tebanashitara
Ashita wa waratte anata wo ai shite
Shiawase wo kanjiyou
Shiawase ni nareru kara

English Translation :

The hands of the clock point to two
Tonight's another sleepless night
I lost my one love but it didn't upset me so far
So I just deeply sigh and let the past go

It's not that I don't understand the one I loved
I just couldn't place faith in anyone around me
Time just keeps passing
Leaving me behind

When I became sad, When it was just me alone
I would hold the fragments of loneliness close to my heart
When I first met you, I realized for the first time
That there was such a thing as happiness

Just once,while I was soaking in the rain
I connected with you and forgot all my pain
Forget about everything and I could finally be honest

Even though it's too late to make up for things
But I feel like it's too soon to give up
But as you turn your back to leave,
I swallowed my words

When I felt your warmth and received your kindness
The loneliness started to fade,little by little
Even though I've been betrayed, I want to believe
That there is still happiness for me

I found the courage to tell you
That this time you wouldn't have to come back to me

When I became sad, When it was just me alone
I would hold the fragments of loneliness close to my heart
As I shed my tears and forgave myself
I let go of the fragments of loneliness
Tomorrow I'll smile and love you
I'll feel the happiness
Because there is happiness for me

[END]

Lots of Love and Hugs ,

Your other self

Another End

This is something to serve as a final reminder to myself..
A moment to remember: 28/8/10 ; 7.30 pm ..
Where it all ends .. not that this is my first but sometimes a wound cut too deep can be hard to cure..
Then again, I know I will be fine.. It is better to let one to take all the pain rather than both side.. and if that's the case,let me be the one..

To who it may concern,I hope that you are really happy now..

ARE YOU HAPPY NOW BY MICHELLE BRANCH




LYRICS:

Now,
don't just walk away
pretending everything's okay and you don't care about me.
And I
know it's just no use.
When all your lies become your truths and I don't care.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

(chorus)
Could you look me in the eye,
and tell me that you're happy now.
Oooh.
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Are you happy now?

You
took all there was to take,
and left me with an empty plate and you don't care about it, yeah.
And I
am giving up this game,
and leaving you with all the blame, cause I don't care.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

(chorus)
Could you look me in the eye,
and tell me that you're happy now oooh.
Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased,
Are you happy now?
Oooh.
Are you happy now?

Yeah, yeah.
Do you really have everything you want.
You could never give something you ain't got,
you can't run away from yourself.

Could you look me in the eye,
and tell me that you're happy now.
Yeah, yeah.
Come on tell it to my face or have I been replaced,
are you happy now?
Yeah, yeah, yeah, ohh, ohh.
Yeah.
ohh oh.
Would you look me in the eye,
could you look me in the eye.
I've had all that i can take i'm not about to break cause I'm happy now.
Oooh.

Are you happy now?


.....and I really hope that you are so my sacrifice will not go in vain.


Yours ,

Chris C

Homesick

Dear All,

It is already middle of July already..and next month I would be going for my 3rd Clinical Posting at Malacca General Hospital from 9th August onwards till 3rd September 2010..

It's been a long time since I went home..If I am not mistaken,the last time I went home was during Chinese New Year..almost 5 months ago!! Gasp! I am missing mum and sis..and the goodness of home already..

Somehow,each time when I planned to go home,something would have pop out and disrupt my plans..For example, I am supposed to have a 2 weeks break after my first semester exam but it got cancelled abruptly without any valid reason..sigh..then it is straight to sem 2..Can you imagine how stressful was it?? :(

Anyway,I found this song by Angela Aki titled "HOME" .. Just the right song to express my feeling at the moment...


HOME by Angela Aki




Lyrics ( courtesy of www.corichan.com ):

sensai na ito de soboku na machi ni shibaritsukerareteta koro
miageru tabi ni sora wa utsushita, haruka ni tooi sekai wo
chiisana basho wo ato ni shite kara dore kurai mou tatsu no darou
Home is calling

I was tied to this simple town with a fine thread
and whenever I looked up, the sky reflected a distant world far away
After I leave this small place behind, I wonder how much time will pass till
Home is calling

furusato kokoro no naka de ima demo yasashiku hibiiteru
samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa anata wo yonde iru

Even now, my home is echoing gently in my heart
On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness, I'm calling you

tokai no sora ni yume wo takushite kokoro wo gisei ni shiteru
yashin to ai no chouwa ga torezu daremo ga samayotte iru
kazaranakatta seijitsu na hibi kono goro nazeka koishiku omou
Home is calling

I entrust my dreams to the city sky, sacrificing my soul
Ambition & love don't mix; everyone is wandering about
They were honest, ungarnished days & for some reason, I recently think of them fondly
Home is calling

furusato taezu ni ai shite kureta sonna hito no kao wo
mou ichido mite mitai, kyoushuu ni karare anata wo yonde iru

I want to once again see the faces
of the people in my hometown who constantly gave me love
Homesick, I'm calling out to you

kako to ima no aida no tobari wo sotto hiraite miru to
sora no wareme kara koboreru hikari ga meguru jidai wo sashite ita
Home is calling

When I open the curtain between the past & the present,
The light spilling from the break in the sky, shines on the revolving times
Home is calling

furusato kokoro no naka de ima demo yasashiku hibiku yo
todomaru koto wo shiranai kibou ni mi wo makasete itemo
samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa anata wo yonde iru
Home is always calling out my name

Even now, my home is echoing gently in my heart
Even if I trust myself to the hope with no limits
On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness, I'm calling you
Home is always calling out my name

samishisa ga shimitsuita yume no nai yoru ni wa
anata wo yonde iru
furusato wo yonde iru

On the dreamless nights tainted with loneliness
I'm calling you
I'm calling home

Yours Truly,

Chris C. the Homesick Silent Soul

First week of July

Dear All,

Hoping that you are all fine..It's been a long week or at least it seemed to be one..
Was down with flu and mild sore throat but thank God that at least the sore throat is cured..currently nursing my stuffy nose..Must be due to the ever changing weather and also the ongoing construction at my campus..Well,do take care of yourselves and take plenty of fluid..

I have to say that last sem was a blur and this sem is worst..somehow I find it hard to figure out what exactly am I supposed to study..even after going through the module booklet..I mean ,its not that I am totally lost..just that I have no idea as in whereabout to start..

And also eversince the last exam,I found myself increasingly laidback about skipping my usual daily jog fix..wondering if I am really that worn off...perhaps its my body cue telling me its time to slow down..

Owh well...that is all I can say for now..till then..take care peeps

Yours sincerely.

Chris C

A Friday's Confession

Dear All,

Too Lost In You by Sugababes

I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try

I'm in over my head
You got under skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in

And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)

Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Falling into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)

I'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can mess with me
(No one can mess with me)

Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby

[Chorus:]
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you

I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you
So deep (so deep), I can't sleep
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you
(Too lost in you)


Yours Truly,
Chris C the Confessor

A Farewell

Dear All,

How are things going for all of you? I hope that all is well.

Approximately 5 and a half hour from now, someone is leaving Malaysia..To be more precise,one of my lecturer.

Mr. Karthik or fondly known as Mr. 90 Kg ( Due to his weight! ) is flying back to India for good...While being a soft-spoken man,he is also one of the most dedicated tutor I have came across in my life as a student.

Mr.K during Cameron trip

Final Class Photo

Candid Shot

Somehow wished that he could have stayed longer but having a family waiting for him back at India,there is no helping it and perhaps this is for the best.

No doubt that with his absence,things will never be the same..But life goes on and surely this is not a farewell but a new start for everyone..

Thanks a lot Mr.K for your guidance and everything you have done..You will surely be in our ( Cohort 2) heart forever..

Have a safe flight back and all the best in your future undertakings..Do take care and keep in touch.

Yours Truly,

Chris C.