From Me to Myself Pt.2

Dear All,

Just another song dedication to myself..and all of you..

" Rainy Days Never Stays " by The Brilliant Green



LYRICS:

ROMANJI :-

I always took the easy way
Just sit around and complain
It's now time to say goodbye

Ukabiagaru koukai wo
Tsukimatou yuu'utsu wo
Sotto kumo ni nagashite

I will find the answer in my heart so...
Ikutsu mono sekai ga kowaretemo
Hatenai akogare ga kono mune ni furisosogu

'Raining all day' going away
Step out to be myself again
Oikaketai It's an amazing day!
'Raining all day' has gone away
Ano natsu no you ni
My dream... soba ni ite mitsukeru kara

Tanchou na hizashi to tanchou na nami ni
Kizu wa iete yuku

Fukai kokyuu no naka de yagate ame ni natte
Umi ni tokeru kara

Koukai ga okubyou ni sugata wo kaete yuku
Iya na hi mo

Kodoku ni tsukamaranai
Tsuyosa wasurenaide

'Raining all day' nando mo
Furikaeru yume wo
Akirameru koto ga kowagatta
'Raining all day'
Harenai yozora mo aru kedo
Little star... ki ga tsuite
Rainy days never stays

'Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Sun is waiting for you to arrive, alive
Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Door is open for you to.....'

'Raining all day' going away
Step out to be myself again
Ima yasashii kaze wo ukete
'Raining all day' has gone away
Ano natsu ni nemuru My dream...
kiss me once again
I'll find a better way

'Raining all day' going away
Can't wait to go and spread my wings
Blowing a kiss to me,
hello amazing day!
'Raining all day' has gone away
Sunshine of mine, just be with me
keeping my heart warm as today
Rainy days never stays

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:-

I always took the easy way
Just sit around and say complaints
It's now time to say goodbye

My regrets rise up to the surface
And my melancholy dangles after them
They quietly float by on the clouds

I will find the answer in my heart so...
No matter how often the world is broken apart
An endless yearning will downpour in my heart

"Raining all day" going away
Step out to be myself again
I want to chase after it, it's an amazing day!
"Raining all day" has gone away
Like that summer
My dream...be with me, and I'll find it

In the boring sunlight and boring waves
My wounds are healing

Amidst my deep breath, it will start raining soon
And the rain will fuse into the sea

My regrets change into cowardice, on bad days
I can't grasp a hold of my loneliness, without forgetting strength

"Raining all day" so many times
I was scared to give up on the dreams that I look back on
"Raining all day"
The night sky is cloudy, but
Little star...realize that
Rainy days never stays

"Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Sun is waiting for you to arrive, alive
Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Door is open for you to..."

"Raining all day" going away
Step out to be myself again
Now, taking in the gentle wind
"Raining all day" has gone away
Sleeping in that summer, my dream...kiss me once again
I'll find a better way

"Raining all day" going away
Can't wait to go and spread my wings
Blowing a kiss to me,hello amazing day!
"Raining all day" has gone away
Sunshine of mine, just be with me
keeping my heart warm as today
Rainy days never stays =)


Till then,cheers..

Yours Truly,

Chris C a.k.a .......

When Things Crashed Down

Dear All,

I will never ever step my leg into that place again..NEVER..
Somehow I,knew it wasn't a good idea to linger around that place..REGRETS..
and NO..I DON'T enjoy it at all...NOT AT ALL...
In the end of the day..what is left? Anger? Shame? Infidelity? Adultery? Misunderstanding? Blames? Fights? Arguments? Break-ups? Tears...
Feeling Filthy, Dirty and Unclean..
Feeling Betrayed...A trust broken...A relationship jeopardised...All that have been build all this while just crashed down in a blink of an eye..
I am SICK of it..just so not worth it...HATE IT!
Should not have went there in the first place..so much for the experience..with no benefits..
YOU had not known that as much as I am COOL about it,I am also very VULNERABLE at the same time..
All of this is practically relatively new to me..How do you expect me to deal with it?

I am a GONER...Hopeless Case...
Then again, if only I had kept my cool and rationale..
SOLUTION is there..without exaggerating the situation..But all that has been done..Is it too late to reverse the mistake and make amendments? Or is there still a faint glimmer of HOPE for apology and reconciliation?

I admit that I have contribute my part in making things worse by my usual moodiness and silent treatment...BUT...I wished YOU had NOT put WORDS and THOUGHTS in my MIND and MOUTH..and STOP assuming things!
..and GIVE me some TIME and CHANCE to reflect on the situation..

...................All is left is regrets and a broken heart..broken due to the way and the person you think I am..
YOU and ME are both DISAPPOINTMENT to each other..the PROMISE made earlier are now merely another WORDPLAY..
Perhaps it is for the best?

CHRIS C the Traumatised Scarred Soul

From Me to Myself Pt.1

Dear All,

I guess that maybe it is time to take better care of myself..Having written letters or short notes to myself in the past,I decided to dedicate a song to myself as well..haha..(sounds very syok sendiri rite?)...

I heard this song while watching the third season of my all time favourite anime, Nodame Cantabile.. "Kaze to Oka no Ballad" by Real Paradis ft. Nodame Orchestra was chosen as the ending theme song for Nodame Cantabile Finale..and I fell in love with it from the moment I first listen to it..

Since the lyrics of this song is sort of uplifting and positive, I would like to dedicate it to myself and also to share both the song and lyrics with all of you..hope that you enjoyed it as well..:)

Kaze To Oka No Ballad by Real Paradis ft Nodame Orchestra



Romanji Lyrics:

Ah nadaraka na saka wo kudaru kara no SUUTSUKEESU furikaeru to
tooku hikaru akai yane kono oka no ie kyou dete iku

watashi wa itsumo kouyatte kita shi souyatte iku shi
kaze no tsuyoi asa ga niau no mukaikaze umaku noreru yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
kioku yubi no aida surinukete mo
kokoro nara koko ni tatte
soshite ONCE AGAIN arukidasu yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa ALWAYS BRIGHT

WHY? sou toitsumete taisetsu na hito komaraseta hi kowashita yume
kabe no mukou mita kotomonai keshiki ga mieta omoi agatte

tabi tori wa ima hane wo yasume nemuri ni tsuku ashita no asa
migaru na mono hodo tooku he toberu hazudayo

hito wa nando datte shiawase ni nareru to
oshiete kureta hito ima sayonara
atarashii machi wo omou
kitto BELIEVE MYSELF mata deau yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa kienai

ima tadashi ikayori tadashi katta to omoidaseru you ni
taiyou no shita te wo futte aruku

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
kioku yubi no aida surinukete mo
kokoro nara koko ni tatte
soshite ONCE AGAIN arukidasu yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa ALWAYS BRIGHT

English Translation Lyrics:

Ah, I'm going down a gentle slope with an empty suitcase.
When I look back, I see a shiny red roof in the distance.
I'm leaving this house on the hill today.

I've always done it like this
and I will continue to do so.
I look my best on windy mornings.
I'm sure I can catch a good head wind.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
Everything is slipping through my fingers,
but my heart is still standing here,
and once again, I will start walking.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Why? Raising a tough question, the day an important dream had been broken.
I saw a scene never seen over the wall.
I was never conceited.

Even people again
can be happy.
People told me goodbye now.
The new town, I think
surely, believe myself to meet again.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart will not die out.

Remembering how now, whether it is or was not right,
walking under the sun, waving.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
Everything is slipping through my fingers,
but my heart is still standing here,
and once again, I will start walking.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Till Then, have a nice Friday ahead and cheers~

Yours Truly,

Chris C.

Neurology Blues

Dear All,

It's a hot afternoon here..but I can see the dark clouds looming over already.. a telltale sign that it is going to rain soon..sigh..which may mean another day without evening jog for four days in a row... :(

I am feeling very stressful although my face may not show any sign of such..this semester is a tough one for me..dealing with brain and nerve supplies ain't easy..Got stuck in the my assignment..didn't know what to write and yet I can see others progressing well..

I have always known that I am a slow learner...most people would be far ahead me by the time I got to the point where they last stand at..Sometimes I do feel left out and envious of their achievements.

Not sure if I can get through all this but I guess I will give it all that I have got and see where it goes from there..

Till then,cheers~

Yours Truly,

Chris C the tired one

The stranger beneath myself

Dear All,

I am tired...
Tired of trying to figure out what is it that I want from life...
A successful career? A happy ever after ending? A ......I don't know..whenever someone ask me something..even if it is a simple question like " What would you like to have for dinner?"....my answer will always be " I don't know... or Anything... or I might even repeat the similar question back to the person who asked me..."

Sometimes I just want to escape from life..from reality..Let someone else take over myself while I hide inside a secret hole deep inside my soul...dreaming for eternity..until the time is right for me to wake up and regain my consciousness...such is a way of a daydreamer..a coward...a fantasizer.. such is a person I am..

Trying to lead a life in which I am trying my best to please everyone without considering myself..but recently nothing turns right..sometimes what you do is not appreciated..and you end up being label "selfish" when all you try to do is to make a living and survive in this realistic harsh world..

To my other self...what do you see when I am not around...Do you experience what I experienced...or was it something better?

Exam creeps around the corner...an assignment remain untouched and delayed as usual when procrastination takes over it's course..problems arising each day and no solution found...a heart torn between two..and an immeasurable guilt building up inside each day...

Who am I? What am I? Can someone please tell me..:(

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore by James Morrison



LYRICS:

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching us fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

This song has been playing in my WMP over and over and over...It reflects myself and the world I am in now...all I need now is to embrace and look out for the stranger that resides in me..the another me...

That's all for now..this entry may not make any sense but it is certainly something which has been bugging me for quite some time now...Till then,take care and see ya all soon..cheers and God bless..

Yours Truly,

Chris C.

A Trip To "Peaceful Land" a.k.a Taiping

Dear all,

I have to admit that I have not been here for quite some time..just being so occupied with exams, studies and so on..and at the same time having the writer's block and also lacked of motivation to write anything here..LOL

Oritey,as promised,today I shall blog about my trip to Taiping last month..Ben asked me if I want to visit his hometown at Taiping..Since I have not been there before and my schedule ain't too pack,I agreed and decided to tag along.

So,Ben picked me up straight from British Council after my invigilating duties at Inti College.Anyway due to drowsiness and fatigue,I slept through the whole journey there..So there isn't much I talk about here except for the fact that I woke up with a bad neck ache..ouch..(T.T)..

The whole journey from KL to Taiping took us like 4 hours plus and the weather was terribly hot..I swear that I feel as if I am travelling through some dessert..Gosh..

When we reached Taiping,I noticed that the whole town looks very post-colonial..old buildings..It is as if I have travelled back to the 50s or 60s..haha..The first place we went to was Ben's home..Believe it or not, although we were at the right housing area, Ben couldn't remember which was his house..LOL..and had to depend on the "room to let" sign-board on the house gate..yeah,since his siblings are all married and no longer stayed there,the house is kinda empty with only his mum so they decided to rent out the extra rooms..sounds like a smart plan to me..after all,who couldn't say no to some extra cash at times like this..

Its was a bit awkward at first when I met his mum..haha..partially because I have no idea what to say and also my hokkien ain't that fluent..but still managed to get through it..thank God..haha

So while,my stay there,I met Ben's elder bro,Johnny and younger sis, Annie and their respective families..Coincidence,it is the Cheng Beng week or so call the Chinese "all souls day"..So I went with his family to give a hand in cleaning their ancestor's grave and also Ben's dad's grave..Yeah,I do feel guilty because I didn't turn up to clean my own grandparent's grave..:X Sorry Ah Ma and Ah Kong ..>.<.. Then again,I have to admit that I have been eating non-stop from the moment I reach Taiping..Popiah, Mee Rebus, Wan Tan Mee , etc. etc. ...Gosh..I realised that whenever Im go somewhere for vacation,I am sure to gain extra weight..(T.T)...Plus it doesn't help when Ben's mum is such a good cook..She whips up a mean Otak Otak and Chilli Sambal !! Gotta ask Ben to learn the secret of the otak otak from his mom..haha..by the way,one interesting fact about Ben's mum..she once won the local state beauty pageant contest..Cool huh.. After indulging myself in all those foods and delicacies, its time to work out a lil bit..So following Johnny's recommendation, Ben took me to one of the golf club around for a swim..well,since we are not members so a sum of rm6 was charged in order to utilise the swimming pool..It was kind of worth it though since the pool is well maintained and there isn't much people around..Felt like its my own private pool..haha. If ever you are in Taiping,the are some MUST visit places such as the Taiping Lake Garden...calm ,serene and full of natural goodness (sounds like some food advertisement) and for all the avid joggers out there,this is a great jogging spot..unfortunately, I did not got the chance to jog there yet due to time constraint..Another place of attraction would be Maxwell Hill a.k.a Bukit Larut..Sort of like a mini Cameron/Fraser...a place to go if you like sight-seeing and nature and also the cool weather..For those faint hearted ones,I wouldn't recommend taking the jeep up the hill although that is the only option available unless if you plan to hike up there which takes about 3-4 hours..Good stamina training though.. :)

And yes of course..the Taiping Zoo...however couldn't comment much about it as I have not been to it yet..LOL

Hmmmm....Im feeling it..It is coming back..oh no..another bout of writer's block..great..although there is more things to share but I just can't seemed to put them down in words...sob..you know what..I guess I will just end my entry here..but fret not..before I do so ,I shall include a link of the photos taken during the trip for the pleasure of your eyes only..:)

Click here:
Taiping Trip Photos


Till then,cheers and take care..I don't know when will I be back again but do watch out for my next entry..:)

Yours Truly,

Chris C. a.k.a the peaceful untalented blogger :x

From Me to You Pt .2

Dear All,

Just a little something which I would like to share with all of you..hope that you enjoyed it as much as I did..:)

愛してる AISHITEIRU ( I Love You ) by KOURIN (高鈴)



ねぇ　もう少しだけ
もう少しだけ聞いていてほしい
ねぇ　もう少しだけ
もう少しだけわがままいいですか？
Nee mou sukoshi dake mou sukoshi dake
Kiite ite hoshii
Nee mou sukoshi dake mou sukoshi dake
Wagamama ii desuka?
Hey, just a little more,
I want you to listen just a little more.
Hey, just a little more,
can I be a little more wilful?


手にいれた途端に消えてしまいそう
言葉をくれませんか？
Te ni ireta totan ni kiete shimai sou
Kotoba wo kuremasen ka?
It seems like it’ll disappear the moment I obtain it.
Won’t you please say something to me?


『愛している　愛している　世界が終わるまで』
馬鹿げてると笑いながら　口に出してみて
愛している
そんなことが簡単には出来なくて
上手く愛せるようにと
あの空に祈っている
Aishite iru aishite iru
Sekai ga owaru made
Bakagete ru to warai nagara
Kuchi ni dashite mite
Aishite iru sonna koto ga
Kantan ni wa dekinaku te
Umaku aiseru you ni to
Ano sora ni inotte iru
I love you, I love you until the world ends.
Trying to say that - "I love you" as you laugh and call it stupid.
Unable to do such a simple thing easily,
I pray to the sky that I am able to love properly.


ねぇ　知りたくても
知り尽くせないことばかりで
だから　１つにならない２つの体を
精一杯　抱きしめた
Nee shiritaku temo
Shiri tsukuse nai koto bakari de
Dakara hitotsu ni naranai
Futatsu no karada wo
Sei ippai daki shimeta
Hey, although I want to know,
there are too many things I can’t understand.
That’s why we embraced these two bodies
that won’t become one with all our might.


あなたがいるそれだけで　もう世界が変わってしまう
モノトーンの景色が　ほら鮮やかに映る
いつの間にか離れていた　手をつないで歩いてく
上手く愛せているかなぁ
あの空に聞いてみるの
Anata ga iru sore dake demo
Sekai ga kawatte shimau
Monotone no keshiki ga hora
Azayaka ni utsuru
Itsu no ma nika hanarete ita
Te wo tsunaide aruite ku
Umaku aisete iru kana
ano sora ni kiite miru no
The world changes just by you being here with me.
Look, this monotonic scenery is now reflecting such vividness.
Before I’m aware, the separated hands are held together as we walk.
I’ll ask the sky
if I’m loving properly.


いつか離ればなれになる日がきても
あなたを想った日々があればそれでいい
いつか離れた意味を知る日が来るよ
約束するから　明日へ
Itsuka hanare banare ni naru hi ga kite mo
Anata wo omotta hibi ga areba sore de ii
Itsuka hanareta imi wo shiru hi ga kuru yo
Yakusoku suru kara ashita e
Even if the day we must part comes,
having the days where I can think of you is enough.
Someday the day I’ll understand why we separated will come.
Because we made a promise, lets move on to tomorrow.


『愛している　愛している　世界が終わるまで』
馬鹿げてると笑いながら　口に出してみて
愛している
そんなことが簡単には出来なくて
上手く愛せるようにと
あの空に祈っている
Aishite iru aishite iru
Sekai ga owaru made
Bakagete ru to warai nagara
Kuchi ni dashite mite
Aishite iru sonna koto ga
Kantan ni wa dekinaku te
Umaku aiseru you ni to
Ano sora ni inotte iru
I love you, I love you until the world ends.
Trying to say that - "I love you" as you laugh and call it stupid.
Unable to do such a simple thing easily,
I pray to the sky that I am able to love properly.


あの空に祈っている
Ano sora ni inotte iru
I pray to the sky.


Yours Truly,

♫ Chris C ♥