Dear All,
I feel dejected..not by anyone but myself..
Haven't been keeping a strict regime on my diet intake and workouts..
As a result, I can already see myself gaining more weight each day and the new breakouts on my face doesn't help much either..
You guys may think that : " Gosh..this guy is so shallow and narcissistic" but well,I couldn't help it..
Just for once,I would like to look good and feel good about myself..Having a pretty low self esteem of myself makes things worse..*sigh*
Another issue which I had in mind is regarding the old man..Why can't he just disappear from my life..such a bothersome creature..yes, I am very thankful for him for bringing me up but I don't see a big deal on it..after all, if he can bring me to this world,this is his responsibility..In my eyes however, he is a failure, I mean a total failure..Curse me all you want, label me as an ingrate and an unfilial son but I don't exactly give a damn anymore..and to my dear uncles, I am sorry that he has been such a trouble to all of you..and I am sorry that I couldn't repay the favour..
I don't know what to do now..seriously I am feeling so lost..all I want is to live my life the way I want to without depending too much on anybody..just me, myself and I..
:(,Chris C
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Moving Forward
Dear all,
Whoa...It's year 2011 already! Not that it make much difference to me. These days, everyday is pretty much the same to me..similar problems which never seemed to get resolved and new problems emerging before the previous ones disappear.
And some people just don't change..for instance me..Complaining and grunting about everything under the sun as usual.LOL
New year, New resolution?Maybe,Perhaps..
Anyway,it is just another year to work harder and be a better person hopefully~
Will end this entry with an uplifting song :
* FIREWORKS *by Katy Perry
Lyrics :
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
[END]
Well,till next time..take care and have a great day ahead~
Cheers,
Chris C
Whoa...It's year 2011 already! Not that it make much difference to me. These days, everyday is pretty much the same to me..similar problems which never seemed to get resolved and new problems emerging before the previous ones disappear.
And some people just don't change..for instance me..Complaining and grunting about everything under the sun as usual.LOL
New year, New resolution?Maybe,Perhaps..
Anyway,it is just another year to work harder and be a better person hopefully~
Will end this entry with an uplifting song :
* FIREWORKS *by Katy Perry
Lyrics :
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
[END]
Well,till next time..take care and have a great day ahead~
Cheers,
Chris C
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Merry Christmas
Dear All,
It has ended!!! Yes, my posting at Kuantan has come to an end yesterday and now I am back at PJ again. :) By the way, it is Christmas today~ Jingle Jingle ~
So,what are your plans today? Either way, do have a wonderful time ahead. :) I do miss home..plan to go home on the 28th if things goes well..
Hmm...nothing much to write at the moment..till then, take care and have a nice Christmas!
It has ended!!! Yes, my posting at Kuantan has come to an end yesterday and now I am back at PJ again. :) By the way, it is Christmas today~ Jingle Jingle ~
So,what are your plans today? Either way, do have a wonderful time ahead. :) I do miss home..plan to go home on the 28th if things goes well..
Hmm...nothing much to write at the moment..till then, take care and have a nice Christmas!
SEASON'S GREETINGS FROM SILENT SOUL..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
Yours Truly,
Chris C
Chris C
Friday, December 10, 2010
Just another random update of myself...
Dear All,
How is your December treating you so far? Hope that all is going well for all of you..
First and foremost, I would like to shout aloud " THANK GOD FOR FRIDAY!!"..which means the end of two weeks and two more weeks to go till I say " Adieu, Sayonara,Bye-Bye etc. " to this creepy place!
Earlier just now while surfing through my facebook , I saw a few videos and articles about some sort of suicide thingy..pretty much common these days but my curiosity got the best of me..So I read through some of the links and found out that it is about a guy who committed suicide after breaking up with his girlfriend..But not before he posted a note on his facebook profile which is his final words to the people he know..
A moment later, a thought struck me : " Is it worth it to end a life for the sake of love ?"
I can't really comment much though since there isn't exactly an exact answer to say if it is right or wrong..Nevertheless, I would like to know your opinion about this.. ( If you guys actually even read this post that is... :/ )
Anyway, I would still like to convey my condolences and sympathy to the suicide victim's family.. and to the victim himself : "Rest in peace and may you find salvation in the afterlife.."
Before I end this post, I shall upload a photo of myself ~ Hee ...just for fun..quite some time since I actually shared my photos to scare my readers!! :P
Just me and Mr. Clown~
How is your December treating you so far? Hope that all is going well for all of you..
First and foremost, I would like to shout aloud " THANK GOD FOR FRIDAY!!"..which means the end of two weeks and two more weeks to go till I say " Adieu, Sayonara,Bye-Bye etc. " to this creepy place!
Earlier just now while surfing through my facebook , I saw a few videos and articles about some sort of suicide thingy..pretty much common these days but my curiosity got the best of me..So I read through some of the links and found out that it is about a guy who committed suicide after breaking up with his girlfriend..But not before he posted a note on his facebook profile which is his final words to the people he know..
A moment later, a thought struck me : " Is it worth it to end a life for the sake of love ?"
I can't really comment much though since there isn't exactly an exact answer to say if it is right or wrong..Nevertheless, I would like to know your opinion about this.. ( If you guys actually even read this post that is... :/ )
Anyway, I would still like to convey my condolences and sympathy to the suicide victim's family.. and to the victim himself : "Rest in peace and may you find salvation in the afterlife.."
Before I end this post, I shall upload a photo of myself ~ Hee ...just for fun..quite some time since I actually shared my photos to scare my readers!! :P
Just me and Mr. Clown~Till then, take care folks and do wish me luck in surviving the coming remaining two weeks here!! XXX
Yours Truly,
Chris C
Yours Truly,
Chris C
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Life in a Hell-hole
Dear all,
I am currently at Kuantan.. as mentioned previously, I am here for my 4th posting at the hospital here..
After being here for a week, all my excitement of coming over here has almost seep away..
This place is purely hell...
Things are expensive..in fact more expensive than KL..and the food sucks..My diet has totally being altered since day 1 itself..Somehow it is so hard to look for affordable and nutritious food here especially greens and fruits.. :(
Sort of tired of all the malay stall food..it's always "goreng-goreng" ( fried) assorted of food and not to mentioned the amount of oil and sugar..
I am now depending on oats and wholemeal for my fibre intake to allow smooth procession of the bowel system ( if you get what I mean)..
And my meal very much consist of biscuits and bread..kind of unhealthy..:( all the processed food..I am missing home already.
Then again, it is not all that bad when you have your friends around you..at least it makes things a lil tad bearable..Thanks gals!
What I can say is that I won't ever come to the eastern northern region for posting anymore if I can help it!! Nothing suits me here.. I am not a beach person and the things here are so freaking costly :(
Can't wait for my last day here..2 weeks + more to go...Wish me luck peeeps!
Till then, take care and see ya soon!
Yours ,
Chris C
I am currently at Kuantan.. as mentioned previously, I am here for my 4th posting at the hospital here..
After being here for a week, all my excitement of coming over here has almost seep away..
This place is purely hell...
Things are expensive..in fact more expensive than KL..and the food sucks..My diet has totally being altered since day 1 itself..Somehow it is so hard to look for affordable and nutritious food here especially greens and fruits.. :(
Sort of tired of all the malay stall food..it's always "goreng-goreng" ( fried) assorted of food and not to mentioned the amount of oil and sugar..
I am now depending on oats and wholemeal for my fibre intake to allow smooth procession of the bowel system ( if you get what I mean)..
And my meal very much consist of biscuits and bread..kind of unhealthy..:( all the processed food..I am missing home already.
Then again, it is not all that bad when you have your friends around you..at least it makes things a lil tad bearable..Thanks gals!
What I can say is that I won't ever come to the eastern northern region for posting anymore if I can help it!! Nothing suits me here.. I am not a beach person and the things here are so freaking costly :(
Can't wait for my last day here..2 weeks + more to go...Wish me luck peeeps!
Till then, take care and see ya soon!
Yours ,
Chris C
Monday, November 22, 2010
Dysfunctional..
Dear All,
So many things happened these few days..I doubt if I can still keep a sane mind or totally lost it sooner or later.
Today was the first day of my final examination for this semester. I wouldn't dare to say that I did well but I think I did whatever I am supposed to do and the rest is up to fate to decide.
Somehow I am still feeling terribly grateful and relieved when the question I am being tested on is related to McKenzie technique rather than the Massage or Peripheral Joint Mobilisation component. Thank You God for your blessings.
Two more days to go with tomorrow being Therapeutic Exercise Strand and Electro Modalities on the day after tomorrow. Hoping to get something which is in my capability.. *prays hard*
Last week, had an argument with my dad. Well, I have never seemed to get along with him anyway. Sometimes what he says does make sense but then I just hate it when he is being long winded and naggy. Moreover, sometimes he just irritates me because as much as his presence in my life is important, I do find it uncomfortable at the same time too.
Then just a day after we argued, I received news from my uncle that he was admitted to the hospital due to a fall..I do suspect that it might be due to him drinking too much prior to the fall since he was talking gibberish the other day when we were arguing through the phone.
I am not sure of his condition but at the moment,he is conscious but sustained injuries at his spine ( not sure which level though..but uncle did mention something about at the cervical neck region)..So currently he is paralysed from the lower extremities in which I am not very sure as well since I have yet to go visit him due to business in exam preparation etc. Anyway, I do hope he is okay and maybe visit him after my last examination. ( Deep inside me, I don't feel like seeing him at all because I don't want another argument to arise but still..sigh..)
As much as I have gotten used to this dysfunction family situation ( mummy one side and daddy another side and being pushed here and there ), sometimes I just get so emotional and abnormal.
After a long time since I last cried, I finally had a quick one yesterday night.Feeling lost and lonely and no one to share this with.
Anyway,for now as Willie told me, it is better to put aside family matters for now and concentrate on my exams instead..At least that is the best solution at the moment.
Well, time to get cracking and going..TE and Electro, I am gonna do my best to get through both of you.
Till then, take care and cheers.
Yours Truly,
Chris C
So many things happened these few days..I doubt if I can still keep a sane mind or totally lost it sooner or later.
Today was the first day of my final examination for this semester. I wouldn't dare to say that I did well but I think I did whatever I am supposed to do and the rest is up to fate to decide.
Somehow I am still feeling terribly grateful and relieved when the question I am being tested on is related to McKenzie technique rather than the Massage or Peripheral Joint Mobilisation component. Thank You God for your blessings.
Two more days to go with tomorrow being Therapeutic Exercise Strand and Electro Modalities on the day after tomorrow. Hoping to get something which is in my capability.. *prays hard*
Last week, had an argument with my dad. Well, I have never seemed to get along with him anyway. Sometimes what he says does make sense but then I just hate it when he is being long winded and naggy. Moreover, sometimes he just irritates me because as much as his presence in my life is important, I do find it uncomfortable at the same time too.
Then just a day after we argued, I received news from my uncle that he was admitted to the hospital due to a fall..I do suspect that it might be due to him drinking too much prior to the fall since he was talking gibberish the other day when we were arguing through the phone.
I am not sure of his condition but at the moment,he is conscious but sustained injuries at his spine ( not sure which level though..but uncle did mention something about at the cervical neck region)..So currently he is paralysed from the lower extremities in which I am not very sure as well since I have yet to go visit him due to business in exam preparation etc. Anyway, I do hope he is okay and maybe visit him after my last examination. ( Deep inside me, I don't feel like seeing him at all because I don't want another argument to arise but still..sigh..)
As much as I have gotten used to this dysfunction family situation ( mummy one side and daddy another side and being pushed here and there ), sometimes I just get so emotional and abnormal.
After a long time since I last cried, I finally had a quick one yesterday night.Feeling lost and lonely and no one to share this with.
Anyway,for now as Willie told me, it is better to put aside family matters for now and concentrate on my exams instead..At least that is the best solution at the moment.
Well, time to get cracking and going..TE and Electro, I am gonna do my best to get through both of you.
Till then, take care and cheers.
Yours Truly,
Chris C
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Letting it go ...
Dear all,
How is your weekend? Is it a lively one or a quiet one like mine?
Somehow I am feeling lost today..not knowing what to do on a Saturday.. wanted to go out but my financial status at the moment does not permit me to do so..
So what did I do today?
- Slept till 12 pm (OMG..I am such a pig but hey, cut me some slack..I need it after having sleepless nights due to assignment and revision )
- Workout in the house..yes, I need to burn off all those calories and fats due to my cookies overindulgence
- Jogging..err,yes again..same reason as above.. ( Somehow I sound like an exercise freak right? But then I am not fit at all *cries* )
- Karaoke session in the evening ( refer to below)
Currently while I'm writing this, I am singing along to one of my favourite song by Sun Yan Zi : 风筝 ( Kite) in my room..Still remember how I used to listen to this song during my secondary school days..bringing back memories of the past..almost cried while singing but managed to hold back those tears..A very touching song indeed..
So, I thought of sharing this song with all of you..hoping that you would enjoy it too..and sing along to it..
Sun Yan Zi - 风筝 ( Kite )
Lyrics :
(Hanyu Pinyin) :
wo bu yao jiang ni duo bang zhu yi miao
wo ye zhi dao tian kong duo mei miao
qing ni ti wo qiao yi qiao
tian shang de feng zheng na er qü liao
yi zha yan bu jian liao
shei ba ta de xian jian duan liao
ni zhi bu zhi dao
cong qian de wo men na er qü liao
lu tai yüan wo wang liao
ru guo ni xiang fei wo ming liao
ni zi you ye hao
kan ni chuan yüe yün duan fei de hen gao
zhan zai shan shang de wo da shen jiao wo
ye xü ni ya bu hui ting dao
ba meng xiang zhao dao yao guo de gen hao
wo bu yao ai qing de di chao
wo hui wei xiao yan lei bu zhun diao
wo hen hao hou lai de ni hao bu hao
ni hui zhi dao wo mei you zou diao
hui yi fei jing feng li liao
tian shang de feng zheng na er qü liao
(English Translation) :
I don't want to keep you tied up for a second more.
I also know how beautiful the sky is.
Please watch after me.
Where did the kite in the sky go?
In the blink of an eye it is nowhere to be seen.
Who cut its string?
Do you know?
What happened to the way we used to be?
The road is too far, I have forgotten.
If you want to fly I understand
It's probably better for you to be free.
Seeing you break through the clouds, flying very high,
standing on top of the mountain, I loudly shout, whoa-oh-oh.
Maybe you won't hear me.
Find your dreams, have a better life.
I don't want love's depression
I will smile, tears are not allowed to fall.
I am fine; the new you, how are you?
You will know I have not left.
The memories have flown into the wind.
Where did the kite in the sky go?
[end]
I know recently I have been posting entries which emits aura of laziness and boredom..sorry about that.. Just felt the need to pour out my thoughts and feelings somewhere since I am not good in expressing myself verbally..but I am still hoping that you guys will still be following me and support me along my journey in this lifetime..
Well,till then..take care and have a nice weekend..
Yours Truly,
Chris C
How is your weekend? Is it a lively one or a quiet one like mine?
Somehow I am feeling lost today..not knowing what to do on a Saturday.. wanted to go out but my financial status at the moment does not permit me to do so..
So what did I do today?
- Slept till 12 pm (OMG..I am such a pig but hey, cut me some slack..I need it after having sleepless nights due to assignment and revision )
- Workout in the house..yes, I need to burn off all those calories and fats due to my cookies overindulgence
- Jogging..err,yes again..same reason as above.. ( Somehow I sound like an exercise freak right? But then I am not fit at all *cries* )
- Karaoke session in the evening ( refer to below)
Currently while I'm writing this, I am singing along to one of my favourite song by Sun Yan Zi : 风筝 ( Kite) in my room..Still remember how I used to listen to this song during my secondary school days..bringing back memories of the past..almost cried while singing but managed to hold back those tears..A very touching song indeed..
So, I thought of sharing this song with all of you..hoping that you would enjoy it too..and sing along to it..
Sun Yan Zi - 风筝 ( Kite )
Lyrics :
(Hanyu Pinyin) :
wo bu yao jiang ni duo bang zhu yi miao
wo ye zhi dao tian kong duo mei miao
qing ni ti wo qiao yi qiao
tian shang de feng zheng na er qü liao
yi zha yan bu jian liao
shei ba ta de xian jian duan liao
ni zhi bu zhi dao
cong qian de wo men na er qü liao
lu tai yüan wo wang liao
ru guo ni xiang fei wo ming liao
ni zi you ye hao
kan ni chuan yüe yün duan fei de hen gao
zhan zai shan shang de wo da shen jiao wo
ye xü ni ya bu hui ting dao
ba meng xiang zhao dao yao guo de gen hao
wo bu yao ai qing de di chao
wo hui wei xiao yan lei bu zhun diao
wo hen hao hou lai de ni hao bu hao
ni hui zhi dao wo mei you zou diao
hui yi fei jing feng li liao
tian shang de feng zheng na er qü liao
(English Translation) :
I don't want to keep you tied up for a second more.
I also know how beautiful the sky is.
Please watch after me.
Where did the kite in the sky go?
In the blink of an eye it is nowhere to be seen.
Who cut its string?
Do you know?
What happened to the way we used to be?
The road is too far, I have forgotten.
If you want to fly I understand
It's probably better for you to be free.
Seeing you break through the clouds, flying very high,
standing on top of the mountain, I loudly shout, whoa-oh-oh.
Maybe you won't hear me.
Find your dreams, have a better life.
I don't want love's depression
I will smile, tears are not allowed to fall.
I am fine; the new you, how are you?
You will know I have not left.
The memories have flown into the wind.
Where did the kite in the sky go?
[end]
I know recently I have been posting entries which emits aura of laziness and boredom..sorry about that.. Just felt the need to pour out my thoughts and feelings somewhere since I am not good in expressing myself verbally..but I am still hoping that you guys will still be following me and support me along my journey in this lifetime..
Well,till then..take care and have a nice weekend..
Yours Truly,
Chris C
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