Acceptance

An apology accepted.
A second chance granted.
Thank you.

With love,

Chris C

Gone

Within a second in a blink of the eye, things changed..just like that without me realising it..A mistake done by the foolish me guided by the irrational bout of emotion..it's gone..feelings changed but the emptiness remains....

Everything I see..I see you..the ache inside just won't go away..It's silly but why do we always fall for the wrong one and push away the right one..

It's a lonely Christmas and an even more lonelier Birthday Celebration..my hands were empty when I stare at them when in fact, there should be your hands holding it but now that it is all illusion..

Tears won't fall but deep inside, it is bleeding...I wished I could have told you that but then my voice just wouldn't reach your ears.

Silently I send my love to you hoping to get your attention even if it is for a brief moment..
Wondering if the image of me ever cross your mind or if I am just another insignificant presence in your life..

I shall now cry and sleep in a sorrowful slumber..

Glow

Dear All,

Long time since I stepped in here once again..a long hiatus..so many things to say yet no words would come out..

GLOW by Hatsune Miku



Yours,

Chris C

Tears

Silently crying myself to sleep every night..

No one knows..

Only me..

5th October 2011

Dear All,

I am doing my best to be strong and independent. I am trying my level best to spend each day in a positive manner. Keep going forward but never backward.

Yours Truly,
Chris C

Tired

I am honestly feeling very tired and demotivated..

Can someone please motivate me..let me get back into track..I have been slacking too much..books untouched..knowledge not gained..things are just stagnant..no improvement..

I feel like dying.

Agony

They say each day is a blessing..each moment is to be cherished..

But I don't feel that way..I see only a dark path engraved ahead of me..

The fact that all those sleepless restless nights proved it well..

I can't tell anybody about how I feel..

I can't share the hurt feelings inside me with anybody..

I don't know why but somehow I just can't..

Was it my pride? Was it my fear?

I don't know..I am one step closer to relying on medication to get me through these dark days..

Nothing seemed to matter to me anymore..any moment, I could have gone to waste..

I am tired..tired of all those silent sobbings..tired of all those fake smiles and acts..tired of having to cope with all this and yet pretend to be strong...

Hopelessly hopeless..that's how I would define myself..

Do not apologise because it doesn't help to make things any better...All I can do is to refrain myself from going anywhere near to you..to lessen the pain, to try to release each memories of you from my mind..