From Me to Myself Pt.2

Dear All,

Just another song dedication to myself..and all of you..

" Rainy Days Never Stays " by The Brilliant Green



LYRICS:

ROMANJI :-

I always took the easy way
Just sit around and complain
It's now time to say goodbye

Ukabiagaru koukai wo
Tsukimatou yuu'utsu wo
Sotto kumo ni nagashite

I will find the answer in my heart so...
Ikutsu mono sekai ga kowaretemo
Hatenai akogare ga kono mune ni furisosogu

'Raining all day' going away
Step out to be myself again
Oikaketai It's an amazing day!
'Raining all day' has gone away
Ano natsu no you ni
My dream... soba ni ite mitsukeru kara

Tanchou na hizashi to tanchou na nami ni
Kizu wa iete yuku

Fukai kokyuu no naka de yagate ame ni natte
Umi ni tokeru kara

Koukai ga okubyou ni sugata wo kaete yuku
Iya na hi mo

Kodoku ni tsukamaranai
Tsuyosa wasurenaide

'Raining all day' nando mo
Furikaeru yume wo
Akirameru koto ga kowagatta
'Raining all day'
Harenai yozora mo aru kedo
Little star... ki ga tsuite
Rainy days never stays

'Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Sun is waiting for you to arrive, alive
Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Door is open for you to.....'

'Raining all day' going away
Step out to be myself again
Ima yasashii kaze wo ukete
'Raining all day' has gone away
Ano natsu ni nemuru My dream...
kiss me once again
I'll find a better way

'Raining all day' going away
Can't wait to go and spread my wings
Blowing a kiss to me,
hello amazing day!
'Raining all day' has gone away
Sunshine of mine, just be with me
keeping my heart warm as today
Rainy days never stays

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:-

I always took the easy way
Just sit around and say complaints
It's now time to say goodbye

My regrets rise up to the surface
And my melancholy dangles after them
They quietly float by on the clouds

I will find the answer in my heart so...
No matter how often the world is broken apart
An endless yearning will downpour in my heart

"Raining all day" going away
Step out to be myself again
I want to chase after it, it's an amazing day!
"Raining all day" has gone away
Like that summer
My dream...be with me, and I'll find it

In the boring sunlight and boring waves
My wounds are healing

Amidst my deep breath, it will start raining soon
And the rain will fuse into the sea

My regrets change into cowardice, on bad days
I can't grasp a hold of my loneliness, without forgetting strength

"Raining all day" so many times
I was scared to give up on the dreams that I look back on
"Raining all day"
The night sky is cloudy, but
Little star...realize that
Rainy days never stays

"Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Sun is waiting for you to arrive, alive
Hurry now it's time to say goodbye, goodbye
Door is open for you to..."

"Raining all day" going away
Step out to be myself again
Now, taking in the gentle wind
"Raining all day" has gone away
Sleeping in that summer, my dream...kiss me once again
I'll find a better way

"Raining all day" going away
Can't wait to go and spread my wings
Blowing a kiss to me,hello amazing day!
"Raining all day" has gone away
Sunshine of mine, just be with me
keeping my heart warm as today
Rainy days never stays =)


Till then,cheers..

Yours Truly,

Chris C a.k.a .......

When Things Crashed Down

Dear All,

I will never ever step my leg into that place again..NEVER..
Somehow I,knew it wasn't a good idea to linger around that place..REGRETS..
and NO..I DON'T enjoy it at all...NOT AT ALL...
In the end of the day..what is left? Anger? Shame? Infidelity? Adultery? Misunderstanding? Blames? Fights? Arguments? Break-ups? Tears...
Feeling Filthy, Dirty and Unclean..
Feeling Betrayed...A trust broken...A relationship jeopardised...All that have been build all this while just crashed down in a blink of an eye..
I am SICK of it..just so not worth it...HATE IT!
Should not have went there in the first place..so much for the experience..with no benefits..
YOU had not known that as much as I am COOL about it,I am also very VULNERABLE at the same time..
All of this is practically relatively new to me..How do you expect me to deal with it?

I am a GONER...Hopeless Case...
Then again, if only I had kept my cool and rationale..
SOLUTION is there..without exaggerating the situation..But all that has been done..Is it too late to reverse the mistake and make amendments? Or is there still a faint glimmer of HOPE for apology and reconciliation?

I admit that I have contribute my part in making things worse by my usual moodiness and silent treatment...BUT...I wished YOU had NOT put WORDS and THOUGHTS in my MIND and MOUTH..and STOP assuming things!
..and GIVE me some TIME and CHANCE to reflect on the situation..

...................All is left is regrets and a broken heart..broken due to the way and the person you think I am..
YOU and ME are both DISAPPOINTMENT to each other..the PROMISE made earlier are now merely another WORDPLAY..
Perhaps it is for the best?

CHRIS C the Traumatised Scarred Soul

From Me to Myself Pt.1

Dear All,

I guess that maybe it is time to take better care of myself..Having written letters or short notes to myself in the past,I decided to dedicate a song to myself as well..haha..(sounds very syok sendiri rite?)...

I heard this song while watching the third season of my all time favourite anime, Nodame Cantabile.. "Kaze to Oka no Ballad" by Real Paradis ft. Nodame Orchestra was chosen as the ending theme song for Nodame Cantabile Finale..and I fell in love with it from the moment I first listen to it..

Since the lyrics of this song is sort of uplifting and positive, I would like to dedicate it to myself and also to share both the song and lyrics with all of you..hope that you enjoyed it as well..:)

Kaze To Oka No Ballad by Real Paradis ft Nodame Orchestra



Romanji Lyrics:

Ah nadaraka na saka wo kudaru kara no SUUTSUKEESU furikaeru to
tooku hikaru akai yane kono oka no ie kyou dete iku

watashi wa itsumo kouyatte kita shi souyatte iku shi
kaze no tsuyoi asa ga niau no mukaikaze umaku noreru yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
kioku yubi no aida surinukete mo
kokoro nara koko ni tatte
soshite ONCE AGAIN arukidasu yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa ALWAYS BRIGHT

WHY? sou toitsumete taisetsu na hito komaraseta hi kowashita yume
kabe no mukou mita kotomonai keshiki ga mieta omoi agatte

tabi tori wa ima hane wo yasume nemuri ni tsuku ashita no asa
migaru na mono hodo tooku he toberu hazudayo

hito wa nando datte shiawase ni nareru to
oshiete kureta hito ima sayonara
atarashii machi wo omou
kitto BELIEVE MYSELF mata deau yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa kienai

ima tadashi ikayori tadashi katta to omoidaseru you ni
taiyou no shita te wo futte aruku

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
kioku yubi no aida surinukete mo
kokoro nara koko ni tatte
soshite ONCE AGAIN arukidasu yo

subete wo te ni irete
subete wo ushinatte
shiroi PEEJI dake ga nokosarete mo
kono mune kibou no hi wa ALWAYS BRIGHT

English Translation Lyrics:

Ah, I'm going down a gentle slope with an empty suitcase.
When I look back, I see a shiny red roof in the distance.
I'm leaving this house on the hill today.

I've always done it like this
and I will continue to do so.
I look my best on windy mornings.
I'm sure I can catch a good head wind.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
Everything is slipping through my fingers,
but my heart is still standing here,
and once again, I will start walking.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Why? Raising a tough question, the day an important dream had been broken.
I saw a scene never seen over the wall.
I was never conceited.

Even people again
can be happy.
People told me goodbye now.
The new town, I think
surely, believe myself to meet again.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart will not die out.

Remembering how now, whether it is or was not right,
walking under the sun, waving.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
Everything is slipping through my fingers,
but my heart is still standing here,
and once again, I will start walking.

I gain everything
and I lose everything.
When I'm left with a blank page,
the fire of hope in my heart is always bright.

Till Then, have a nice Friday ahead and cheers~

Yours Truly,

Chris C.

Neurology Blues

Dear All,

It's a hot afternoon here..but I can see the dark clouds looming over already.. a telltale sign that it is going to rain soon..sigh..which may mean another day without evening jog for four days in a row... :(

I am feeling very stressful although my face may not show any sign of such..this semester is a tough one for me..dealing with brain and nerve supplies ain't easy..Got stuck in the my assignment..didn't know what to write and yet I can see others progressing well..

I have always known that I am a slow learner...most people would be far ahead me by the time I got to the point where they last stand at..Sometimes I do feel left out and envious of their achievements.

Not sure if I can get through all this but I guess I will give it all that I have got and see where it goes from there..

Till then,cheers~

Yours Truly,

Chris C the tired one

The stranger beneath myself

Dear All,

I am tired...
Tired of trying to figure out what is it that I want from life...
A successful career? A happy ever after ending? A ......I don't know..whenever someone ask me something..even if it is a simple question like " What would you like to have for dinner?"....my answer will always be " I don't know... or Anything... or I might even repeat the similar question back to the person who asked me..."

Sometimes I just want to escape from life..from reality..Let someone else take over myself while I hide inside a secret hole deep inside my soul...dreaming for eternity..until the time is right for me to wake up and regain my consciousness...such is a way of a daydreamer..a coward...a fantasizer.. such is a person I am..

Trying to lead a life in which I am trying my best to please everyone without considering myself..but recently nothing turns right..sometimes what you do is not appreciated..and you end up being label "selfish" when all you try to do is to make a living and survive in this realistic harsh world..

To my other self...what do you see when I am not around...Do you experience what I experienced...or was it something better?

Exam creeps around the corner...an assignment remain untouched and delayed as usual when procrastination takes over it's course..problems arising each day and no solution found...a heart torn between two..and an immeasurable guilt building up inside each day...

Who am I? What am I? Can someone please tell me..:(

The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore by James Morrison



LYRICS:

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching us fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore

Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Coz I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

You pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

This song has been playing in my WMP over and over and over...It reflects myself and the world I am in now...all I need now is to embrace and look out for the stranger that resides in me..the another me...

That's all for now..this entry may not make any sense but it is certainly something which has been bugging me for quite some time now...Till then,take care and see ya all soon..cheers and God bless..

Yours Truly,

Chris C.