Tick Tock....

Dear all,

Time is running short..wonder if I have got enough time to finish my revision for the coming Neuro paper..Sometimes although I feel that I have read it all but something in my mind tells me that I am not fully prepared..conclusion : it may be just a pre-exam anxiousness but I am afraid..All I want is a fear-free life...but to achieve that, the only option is to go into the eternal slumber, a trip to the other side;below the ground or above the skies..

Much have happened but nothing much I could share with you guys..just this..hope you guys like it.

I GO by Pete Teo




Lyrics:

So long, fare thee well
The dancer and the dancing days have taken leave and fell
So turn down this bed of stone
Quench me with the deadly nightshade from the rose that you belong

The long December rain is falling now
Running down on streets to nowhere
Music is my life you're my sweetest nightingale
But I cant hear it here no more

And I go
I go

Hush now, don't shake or break
Words have fallen silent like soldiers to the grave
No matter what they do or say
Lay me on the sleepy meadow by the tracks upon your face

[end]

Till then, wish me luck....

The black dreamer,
Chris C

King of Sorrow

Dear All,

King of Sorrow by Sade



Lyrics:

I'm crying everyone's tears
And there inside our private war
I died the night before
And all of these remnants of joy and disaster
What am I suppose to do

I want to cook you a soup that warms your soul
But nothing would change, nothing would change at all
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder if this grief will ever let me go
I feel like I am the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I suppose I could just walk away
Will I disappoint my future if I stay
It's just a day that brings it all about
Just another day and nothing's any good

The DJ's playing the same song
I have so much to do
I have to carry on
I wonder will this grief ever be gone
Will it ever go
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
The king of sorrow

I'm crying everyone's tears
I have already paid for all my future sins
There's nothing anyone
Can say to take this away
It's just another day and nothing's any good

I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow
I'm the king of sorrow, yeah
King of sorrow

[Repeat above until fade]

*lyrics courtesy of Azlyrics.com*

Yours Sorrowful,

Chris C

Disapointment and Fear..

Dear All,

I am restless and I am scared..I don't know why but many bad things have been thrown towards my direction,one after another...

Somehow I lost the will to continue my life..I am like a lost boat..drifting in the middle of the sea..not knowing which direction to go..

I just feel like crying now...silently till the last of my remaining breath...

New Semester

Dear All,

After a long break of almost two months, it is time for my new semester of my third year..Which means... Back to class once again..I don't know if I am looking forward to it or if I am still not prepared for it..lol

Anyway, if you are wondering what I have been doing all this while..that is if you notice my hiatus from my blog page for quite a period of time ( for the past two months, I suppose)..well, I don't know where should start but let's just make is simple : I have been trying to earn some extra pocket money living cost funds for this coming semester...

So far have been working as promoter for the IT fair ( A pretty crappy IT fair though :/ ), the usual IELTS invigilation/ushering , and also my new part time job after Coffee Beans..."Store Associate" at Borders Bookstore at Gardens..

and... I didn't went back for CNY celebration this year..just for a change but I am DEFINITELY going back next year!!! Because of the red packets...XD Seriously...this year's amount has been like only less than 10% of the normal amount I usually received..*SAD CASE*

Other than that, I don't think there's much thing to share over here...

Hmmmm..actually there's a few issues to be highlighted but I am just plain lazy sleepy..lol..Alright then..maybe another time.

Well, till then..see ya folks soon enough...gotta grab some sleep for tomorrow...
Night and take care!


Yours,

Chris C

W.H.A.T.E.V.E.R~

Dear All,

YO!! Won't be posting anything for now..just a "HI" to show that I am still alive but too busy to blog..Well then, see ya all soon..

Cheers,

Chris C

Acceptance

Dear All,

I feel dejected..not by anyone but myself..
Haven't been keeping a strict regime on my diet intake and workouts..
As a result, I can already see myself gaining more weight each day and the new breakouts on my face doesn't help much either..
You guys may think that : " Gosh..this guy is so shallow and narcissistic" but well,I couldn't help it..
Just for once,I would like to look good and feel good about myself..Having a pretty low self esteem of myself makes things worse..*sigh*

Another issue which I had in mind is regarding the old man..Why can't he just disappear from my life..such a bothersome creature..yes, I am very thankful for him for bringing me up but I don't see a big deal on it..after all, if he can bring me to this world,this is his responsibility..In my eyes however, he is a failure, I mean a total failure..Curse me all you want, label me as an ingrate and an unfilial son but I don't exactly give a damn anymore..and to my dear uncles, I am sorry that he has been such a trouble to all of you..and I am sorry that I couldn't repay the favour..

I don't know what to do now..seriously I am feeling so lost..all I want is to live my life the way I want to without depending too much on anybody..just me, myself and I..

:(,Chris C

Moving Forward

Dear all,

Whoa...It's year 2011 already! Not that it make much difference to me. These days, everyday is pretty much the same to me..similar problems which never seemed to get resolved and new problems emerging before the previous ones disappear.

And some people just don't change..for instance me..Complaining and grunting about everything under the sun as usual.LOL

New year, New resolution?Maybe,Perhaps..

Anyway,it is just another year to work harder and be a better person hopefully~

Will end this entry with an uplifting song :


* FIREWORKS *by Katy Perry





Lyrics :

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting throught the wind
Wanting to start again

Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in

Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing

Do you know that tehre's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road

Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know

You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through

Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby you're a firework
Come on slet your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon

[END]


Well,till next time..take care and have a great day ahead~


Cheers,

Chris C